My adventure to achieve a healthy weight!

Archive for July, 2011

Amused

I am amused by the fact that I get about triple the views per day when I don’t post anything for a week.

Awesome.

Quick update: Haven’t weighed in for quite a while, decided to give up on Biggest Loser for now, wasn’t working for me anymore. Got a Zumba game for my wii that I’ve done once, but for the most part I’ve been pretty lazy and stressed. The whole being not fat thing has kind of failed for the past few weeks (aka past month)

Being so stressed about my job plays a big role I think…. I’m pretty drained and all I want to do is flake on the couch and eat fuzzy peaches at the end of the day. My emotions are all just so… DONE. I hate it. I hate that job. Ugh.

I don’t know what to do. I just need to……. FIX my life. Just find a way to eat well, exercise, be good at my job, have some friends, not get my boyfriend mad and upset with me….

There’s just so much. I can’t handle all of it. And unfortunately right now the things that are falling the most to the side are my eating and my exercising.

Which is bad.

Sigh.

Help me?

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Need to get BACK ON TRACK HERE.

So I’ve been REALLY lazy and lax the past…. ohhh I’d say month or so.

Like, yesterday was bad…

I’ve only worked out like twice in the past two weeks.

I think that the Biggest Loser game for wii has started to lose its charm and effectiveness…. It may be time to try and find something new. And I need to do it soon, because I’m going to start gaining 😦 …..I have not been eating very well, and on top of that, a lack of exercise is going to make me gain back everything I’ve lost. I need to fix this and get going again.

Any suggestions anyone…

Ugh.

I really NEED to start counting calories again. Tomorrow. Seriously. For real.

1400 a day, NO MORE CAKE EMILY. And no timbits either. RAWR.

Healthy good food, and controlled portions of it too. This needs to start happening again. I can’t lose all this work I’ve done, I can’t sabotage myself like this. I need to get back on track, I need to fix this. I need to get consistently below 170. I know I can do this. I know I can do this…..

Help me!

My Summer Goal

So. I got this idea sitting in the lunch room at work, and one of my coworkers had her food in a lulu lemon bag. You know, the ones with all those supposedly inspirational quotes, “eat, floss, sing, travel”….(rolls eyes) lol. However…this bag did have something that has inspired me, so I suppose I no longer have any grounds to make fun of it.

My new goal for this summer is to sweat every day. Every single day. Even if it’s just for 5 minutes, I want to sweat. I’m not entirely certain how I am going to accomplish this task, and it’s probably going to prove itself rather difficult, since sweating generally takes me a while, and it takes me even longer now that I’ve lost weight.

However, I think that even 15 minutes of exercise every day, just enough to make me sweat, (if I can get into the routine of it) will help me be healthier and incorporate exercise more into my everyday living instead of treating it as a chore. I mean, three days a week are already accounted for. Hopefully I can go play tennis with mom on the weekends, and if I work hard enough at that, that will cover one or two more days. What to do with the others? Go for a run? Bike ride? I don’t know… especially since the weather hasn’t been hot lol… though I suppose depending on that would be cheap. Any ideas, readers?

Monday Wednesday and Friday are going to be the toughest. I want something sustainable and doable, something that I will stick with. Hopefully playing outside with the kids at work will help…. I need something, even just for tomorrow! I already did it today, but tomorrow is not a workout day, unless I do an extra wii biggest loser routine. I’m not sure that’s what I want though, if I overdo that, I won’t want to do the scheduled routines. I guess we’ll have to wait and see what the weather brings. If only it would ever stop raining so we could play outside! And the mosquitoes….. ugh.

Well, that’s my goal. Sweat every day. This post was rather long-winded, I guess that previous sentence is really all I needed to say, but if I can’t post my thoughts here, there’s no where to put them. After all, that is kind of the point of a blog. I’ll shut up now.

Exahsiiize

I worked out. Hard. Like really hard. 45 minutes of hardcore abs.

I cheated again though, I started yet ANOTHER new program, which I WILL stick with…. (fingers crossed… Emily have will power!) I set it up for only 3 times a week, which will hopefully coincide with my schedule a little better, plus starting it on tuesday means that I have workouts on Tuesdays and Thursdays which is exactly what I need to do. I made the routines longer though, and that extra 15 minutes is absolutely exhausting, I gotta tell ya. I was expecting it to be over when I still had two sets of exercises plus stretching left to do. Plus it started repeating exercises, which means those same muscle groups get to do some MORE screaming at me all over again (they don’t like it when I make them do work twice), and I was really tired and REALLY hungry after. Burned I think like 190 calories, but I was SO HUNGRY! I had already eaten close to 1000 calories during the day, but I had to eat more than 400 at dinner, I was so starved. I ate my supper, waited like half an hour, then when I was still hungry I had some rhubarb and oatmeal casserole (with reduced sugar at my request, made by mommy =3 ) It was delish, but I have a bit of heartburn from the acidic rhubarb now.

Pft. Who am I to complain?! I felt. SO. GOOD. after that workout. SOO GOOOD. I think I will sleep LEAGUES better tonight, even though I’m less tired before bed than I have been. Hopefully I will have more energy tomorrow and be less dependent on coffee… I drank two cups of it this morning, and the caffeine hit me like a brick and I was so jittery, then I was just bouncy for a few hours. It kept me awake at least though.

When I woke up this morning, it was NOT to my alarm (about which I was very dismayed, I had planned on working out before work, not after), but to my mother. I had slept straight through my alarm, and woke up feeling groggy, grumpy and GROSS. (heh alliteration). Coffee helped to some degree, good day at work helped more, exercise made me feel amazing, and a delicious dinner of fried macaroni, salad, beans and really good bread was the cherry on top.

I’m feeling good right now. No exercise scheduled for tomorrow, but just maybe I’ll have to summon the energy to do a little something extra in order to honour my new goal…Which I shall post about right now.

Good luck to you all in your healthy adventures 🙂

Must Work Out Tomorrow.

Must work out tomorrow.

Must work out tomorrow.

Must work out tomorrow.

Must work out tomorrow.

Must work out tomorrow.

Must work out tomorrow.

Somebody better hit me really hard multiple times if I don’t.

I Need to Rediscover Me

Sorry it’s been so long since i’ve posted…. It’s been a rough week to say the least..

By that I mean I haven’t worked out once, I stopped keeping track of my calories and I… I’m having trouble with my job, I’ve had a few fights with my boy. It’s been kind of really awful.

I want to work out again. I need to. My body needs it, I’m so much more exhausted when I don’t…It’s just with work, I have to leave the house at 7 three days a week. It’s so tough. I know I’ll get through it… It’s just so difficult to tell myself when I’m so exhausted that I’m going to wake up early and exercise, it’s so difficult to curb my portions when I’m so exhausted and hungry. I don’t know how to get myself back on track. I’m getting so sick of that stupid biggest loser game. I don’t stick to it.

I’m contemplating trying Moksha yoga. It’s yoga done in a hot room… again though, I have to face my exhaustion. I either would have to leave the house even earlier, or I would have to go do it after work…Neither of which I’m terribly interested in doing. I need SOMETHING. I just…. I need something. I don’t really know what I’m looking for…. I feel kind of lost and fat right now. I was in the bathtub, and I realized that not too long ago I was weighing myself, praying that I would see a 188.5… today I was 168.5, twenty entire pounds lighter than that. The problem is though, I got out that bathroom scale. I got it out of the closet, even though I had made a commitment to myself that I wouldn’t. Something is not working here.

I’m just feeling so sluggish. I’m dreading work tomorrow. Sigh. I need to get out my calorie book again. I need to start to pay attention. I need to make this happen. Now if only my SELF would start agreeing with my logic. I know I need to. I just don’t know how anymore.

Exhaustion

Worked out tonight. It’s tough on a full stomach… Blah. I felt icky after, but overall still feeling pretty darn spectacular.

I weighed myself on James’s bathroom scale today….. 164. ONE SIXTY FOUR.

How did that happen?!

😀

hehehehehe

So I’ve been eating pretty well. I’ve found a pretty awesome balance between healthy and yummy. I got to have a slurpee, a little bit of chocolate and a sherbet bar today, and I still am under my calorie limit. Yet I also filled my tummy with healthy yumminess too 🙂 I think feeding myself and staying under 1400 calories is really not that difficult. I’m pretty used to it now. I’ve actually been under 1300 the past few days…. I’m feeling good.

Work is going well. It’s pretty exhausting. Today was the first day with the kids at work, and it was kind of just the teensiest bit INSANE.

Got home, vegged on the couch, then decided to work out at 8:30… so I did. I put it on level Hard. 4th hardest of 5 levels of difficulty. and I got 4/5 proficiency. I did really well. I’m proud of myself. Got 5/5 on both tire jumps AND jump rope with high knees 😀 I was so happy! I’ve never done that before…. 🙂

So yes. Life is going pretty darn well. I’m feeling great.

Also, yes, sister, I would like to see you soon and make vegan mac and cheese!! I have a craving for that for some reason. 🙂 please?!