My adventure to achieve a healthy weight!

Archive for April, 2011

It’s My Birthday!!!

SO! Goal officially achieved as of 10:50 as I weighed in at 179.5 lbs. HEY. That is still within mah goal. LOL. NOT exactly the greatest day for food. It’s my freaking birthday for the next 58 minutes still, so I am not upset with myself. I am happppy dapppppy!

Thanks to all for the love and support and the next goal will be set tomorrow.

Love ya friends and fam 🙂

Days till Birthday: 1!!

I think the reason my eating has been not so great lately is because I have no specific goal set for myself right now. Tomorrow night I will set a new one and I will start working harder again to achieve what I need.

Did a 30 minute box-fit routine on the game today, weighed in on it at 173lbs! My own scale said 175, and tonight I’m 178 on my own scale.

My birthday is tomorrow, and I achieved my goal. I did it. What I thought for so long was impossible, I actually did. I did it!!

I made a decision tonight. When I reach 160lbs I am going to buy a bikini.

LE GASP!

Not for anyone else, I might not even wear it in public. But yknow what?! It’ll be hot 😀 and I will feel goood that I got there and that I feel confident enough to sport a couple of band aids that pass off as a bathing suit 😉

160lbs is a bit of a distant goal for the moment, I think I’ll think somewhere more within the realm of getting out of the 170’s by the end of May or something. I want to be more creative than that, this present goal had sparkle just in that this was such a treat for myself, to have reached my birthday and have lost this much weight. It feels SO good.

But hey, as of this morning, 160 was only 15 pounds away. Which is not so distant as it used to be. 160 is within the range of a healthy weight…Which is almost so amazing it’s terrifying. I’ll be there by summer. I WILL, because I WILL stick to this!

Days till Birthday: 2

Today…. Today it’s time for a different outlook in this journal. Maybe just because I’m in a different mood, I don’t know and I don’t care. But I’m not going to tell you what I weighed in at, and I’m not going to tell you everything I ate.

Today I’m going to tell you why. Why everything.

I clicked to the blog of a friend of mine who got me started off on my new shot at weight loss. We had talked about it together, but I had never checked her blog before. A lot of it was filled with pictures of skinny and toned women, the sort of negative reinforcement that makes you say “god I’m fat, I need to work out and eat celery”. And maybe that works for her, and maybe that works for some people, which is awesome, do whatever works! It turned me off.

I realized….I don’t want to lose weight because I feel bad about who I am. I don’t want to lose weight because I don’t like the way I look, because I think I’m fat. Sometimes that’s true, sometimes when I’m discouraged and feeling down I think with that kind of attitude.

But really…overall, what is the REAL REASON I am doing this??

Because I love myself. Because I love my body and my mind and my soul. Because I want to be healthy, and I want to lead a healthy life. Losing weight will help me achieve a healthier body, reduce risk of all those nasty medical problems, it will help my have a healthier mind, filled with less negative and more positive thinking.

That’s what I care about, that is what I’m working toward. I don’t want to feel bad and lose weight. I want to feel good about myself, love myself, and lose weight. I don’t want to punish myself when I want to eat sweets, or if I take a day off working out. This week, I’ll say, has not been the best week. I have not met previous standards, I have not done as well as I have in the past.

And that is okay. What matters is that I don’t feel guilty or bad or depressed, but that I let myself realize that what needs to be done NEEDS to get done, and that tomorrow I WILL wake up at 6 am and exercise. I’m making a commitment to myself that tomorrow it’s gonna happen. Will I enjoy it? No. Not until after, when I step on the scale and see the results and know that I’m getting somewhere, when I feel the adrenaline rush and smile and think of how proud James will be when he wakes up and I tell him.

A positive mindset is really the only thing you can depend on. There’s no way around it…. There is no other way to get results, to learn to love your body. If you’re always negative, even when you hit your healthy weight, it’ll never be good enough. You’ll keep feeling bad…. and I want to avoid that. I’ve felt bad about myself for enough years of my life. This year has been a new beginning and I want nothing more but for that to continue and grow.

Positivity it is.

Love, joy and hugs to all. Don’t forget to floss.

Days till Birthday: 3

Tonight I am 178 pounds of happiness, beauty and optimism.

I had a grumpy day, but now I am feeling most excellent. Yet another day of not working out, I feel bad, but I am still recovering from strep and needed the extra sleep. Or so my body seemed to think when it fell asleep right after turning off the alarm. Didn’t even get out for a walk…oh well. My eating was pretty good today and James and I went on an adventure to the doctor.

Got a hair cut, feelin’ spiffy and pretty 🙂 much better than the last one, which I got very angry at and “fixed” myself with a pair of dull sewing scissors. I think my version was much more acceptable, though still not very good haha.

Breakfast: A bagel thin, one half with minimal light cream cheese, the other with margarine, two slices of pineapple, juice. Snack: apple Lunch: two small slices of veggie pizza bread Snack: banana Snack: half an apple, half a piece of chocolate Dinner: veggies, a couple bites of quinoa (a grain) with veggies in it, a piece of bread. Dessert: a Ferrero Rondnoir (Dark chocolate =], 60 calories, FULL OF YUM)

So yes, fairly good day I think 🙂 except the no exercise part.

I think all you people who used to read this think I’m boring now that I’ve achieved my goal 😦 there will be a new one after Saturday, I promise!! Don’t leave meee! I had ZERO views today until I told James to click on it just so I wouldn’t feel like a total loser. I feel oooh so special. With a capital R. Lulz grade 6 jokes ^_^

What is beauty?

A Smile, A Laugh, A Giggle, A Bit Of Joy ❤

Days till Birthday: 4

178.5lbs at 9pm. A bit of increase, but still meeting the goal lol. NEED to get back on track, the past couple days I’ve been eating too much at night.

Breakfast: toast with jam, juice, (I feel like I ate a piece of fruit but I can’t remember what) Snack: an apple Lunch: egg salad sandwich (again, Easter’s fault), a banana Snack: dried mango Snack: blueberry crumble Dinner: Spaghetti squash and soy meatballs, veggies, a bite of bread Dessert: sliver of ice cream log

Pretty obvious where the improvements could lie, but I didn’t eat any Easter candy, and at the very least the worst thing I had was the crumble because that was too soon before dinner, so I wasn’t hungry when I ate dinner. So, overate. But it’s not the end of the world.

Tried to get up to exercise this morning, didn’t happen. So just went for a half hour walk with mom tonight. Need to work out tomorrow, which means 6am! yay….. 😦

Still trying to brainstorm for a new goal. Need one soon!

Blueberry Apple Crumble

Filling: Mix desired amount of frozen blueberries with one or two diced apples (it depends how much you’re making). Add about half a cup of flour (so it’s not super runny), and 1/4 cup of sugar, a sprinkle of cinnamon and nutmeg.

Topping: 1/2 a cup of flour, 1/2 a cup of oatmeal, 1/4 cup of sugar, 1/2 cup of melted margarine or butter. Mix it up.

Put the filling in a baking dish and spread the topping over it. Bake at 350F until topping is golden brown and filling is bubbly. Enjoy!

(PS, this is really yummy.)

Days till Birthday: 5

Another sweet taste of victory…

I think….I think I actually reached my goal. Wow. 177.0 lbs at 9:10 PM!

It almost….it almost just baffles me, I didn’t think it was going to happen, I didn’t think it was possible. Pretty soon, 5 days from now, I’ll have to start thinking of a new goal. I’m so…proud of myself, I can’t believe it. I feel good, I feel pretty and I’m starting to get muscle tone. It’s not just that I’ve lost weight, it’s that I’m actually starting to get in shape. I feel SO GOOD.

Today I was really into the exercise! Did my 50 minutes of hard circuit training this morning on Biggest Loser, I think I did really well. It was exhausting because I hadn’t worked out that hard in quite a while, plus I’m still getting over being sick and all. But it felt amazing after. I got 4/5 proficiency on CIRCUIT TRAINING!!! I’ve never done that before. Ladeda what a good day.

Breakfast: toast with peanut butter, a banana, juice (hence forward when I say juice it means roughly 100mL, a very small glass) Lunch: 6 inch veggie subway sub on flatbread, shared a small bag of sunchips with mommy. Snack: popcorn with the boy (you still make it best baby), a few pieces of chocolate. Dinner: coleslaw, pirogies (I had about 3), edamame beans. Dessert: veeeery thin slice of DQ ice cream cake log, we’re talking 1/4 of a centimeter, and a spoonful of yesterday’s blueberry crumble.

So. I got my sweets fix for the weekend and didn’t gain. Gaining only a pound over the course of an entire day is not very much for me. Usually I go up at least two or three. But hey, no one’s complaining here.

May you all have a wonderful evening and day tomorrow 🙂 Be strong, my one reader. Be strong. DON’T YOU DARE TOUCH THE EASTER CANDY! Tomorrow, I’m hiding mine from myself.